Salvation (Poem) (Yes I wrote it :)

Salvation

I sit in the corner and watch as the scars wrap themselves around my arms
They are vines twisting and gripping
Threatening to never let go
They promise to hold
Hold me close

I scream, I am trapped
Trapped in myself, never able to get out
I am a prisoner on Calypso’s Island
I am Calypso and I am trapped
Inside of myself

To get out would be a dream come true
To get out would be a lie
Stuck here forever I must stay
Until the day I die

To live forever would be a curse
To die would be much worse
I do not know nor can I tell
What awaits on the other side

I pray to God
I scream his name
I’m begging him for help

And through the darkness shines a light
A light I’ve never known
It speaks my name
It shakes my soul
It promises to help

I grab the light
I hold on tight
My scars begin to fade

My heart once ice
Now beats with blood
And youth and joy
And hope

I feel so bright
So full of love
I feel so clean
So new

No more dark nights
No more goodbyes
No more hating you

For I’m forgiven
I’m made new
And some things I leave behind
Shards of glass and hatred
Pieces of my life

For now I have a hope eternal
For now I have new life
So Goodbye island
Goodbye I say
And from the vines I flee

Goodbye to my desperate screams
And goodbye to my struggles
I won’t be coming back you see
Because I have been made free

List of PepsiCo Products

If you haven't read my last post, please read it. Here's a list of PepsiCo products in case you are interested in joining me in the Boycott.

• Pepsi-Cola Brands
• Pepsi Drinks
• Sierra Mist
• Citrus Blast Drinks
• Tropicana drinks
• IZZE drinks
• Ocean Spray drinks
• Mt. Dew
• AMP Energy drinks
• Mug rootbeer & cream soda drinks
• No Fear Drinks
• Seattle's Best Coffee
• SoBe drinks
• Aquafina
• Frappucino Brand drinks
• Double Shot drinks
• Brisk Drinks
• Lipton drinks
• Popel drinks

Frito-Lay

• Lays Chips
• Ruffles
• Doritos
• Tostitos
• Santitos
• Cheetos
• Stacy's
• Rold Gold Pretzels
• Fritos
• Sunchips
• Funyuns
• Sabritones
• Cracker Jack
• Grandma's Cookies
• Munchos
• Smartfood
• Baken-ets
• Matador
• Frito-Lay
• Hickory Sticks
• Hostess Potato Chips (twinkies are still good :)
• El Isleno
• Lays
• Miss Vickie's
• Munchies
• Sabra Hummis
• Tropicana
• Tropcana juices and drinks
• Dole juices and drinks
• Quaker Brands
• Quaker
• Aunt Jemima
• Rice-A-Roni
• Pasta roni
• Near East
• Puffed Wheat
• Mother's Cereals
• King Vitamin
• Cap'n Crunch

• Gatorade Products

I would like to remind you guys that there are store brand alternatives to all of these...and there's Kellog and all kinds of other brands...
Please consider joining me and my family (and several Pro-Life organizations) in a full fledge PepsiCo boycott or at the very least boycott Pepsi-Cola products. Write a letter to PepsiCo letting them know that they're wrong and what they're doing is horrible and has to be stopped. Thanks guys!

• Gatorade Products

We are who we are when?

So today something happened I have been really convicted about the way I reacted to the situation. Basically some people were making fun of God and instead of taking a real stand I tried to make a joke out of it like "hey guys we should stop, don't feel like dying" type of deal but I didn't take a real stand. I become really convicted one because I feel like I pretty much smacked God in the face by standing by and letting him be mocked and two because everyone there knows that I'm a Christian and that one screw up alone could very well have hurt my witness to those particular people. I was praying about how to handle the situation (which is take a stand if the joke is brought up again) and that quote "You are who you are when no one else is around" popped into my head and I really started to think about it. That is how the world justifies a lot of what they do. If you're the real you when no one's around then what you do the rest of time doesn't matter because that's not really you right? Wrong. Unfortunatly a lot of Christians (myself included) have decided that if this standard is good enough for the world then it's good enough for us. Well that mind set is wrong a destructive. For us as Christians the reality of life is We are who we are when EVERYONE is around. Our job is to take a stand for Christ in front of people not in private. We are supposed to glorify Jesus in front of people not just when we're alone. So, think about when you laugh at a joke, refuse to speak up, or open your mouth. You Are Who You Are When Everyone Is Around.

Mac Lucado book expert "A Love Worth Giving"

Holah Ladies and Gents.
Soooo...on wens. night at church we're doing the DEVO A Love Worth Giving by Max Lucado. Anyway tonight we read something that just really stood out to me and paints a vivid image of what Christ really went through for me it just blew me away and really touched base with me. I dont think Im breaking any copy right laws or anything....I hope not (sorry Max! if I am) Soooo....here it is.
"Such love isn't easy. Not for you. Not for me. not even for Jesus. Want proof? Listen to his frustration: 'You people have no faith. How long must I stay with you? How long must I put up with you?' (Mark 9:19)
 Even the son of God was handed plates of 'croak-ra' and 'gasp-aragus.' To know Jesus asked such a question reassures us. But to hear how he answered will change us.
How long must I put up with you?
'Long enough to be called crazy by my brothers and a liar by my neighbors. Long enough to be run out of my town and my Temple. Long enough to be laughed at, cursed, slapped, hit, blindfolded, and mocked. Long enough to feel warm spit and sharp whips and see my own blood puddle at my feet.'
How long?
'Until the rooster sings and the sweat stings and the mallet rings and a hillside of demons smirk at a dying God.'
How long?
'Long enough for every sin to so soak my sinless soul that heaven will turn in horror until my swollen lips pronounce the final transaction : 'It is finished.''
How long?
'Until it kills me.'
Jesus bore all things, believed all things, hoped all things, and endured all things. Every single one."
If that doesn't paint an amazing picture of what Christ did for us in your head then I don't know what will.
If that doesn't bring tears to your eyes, then I don't know what will.
If that doesn't make you want to strive to live your life in a way that will represent God so that you might possiblygive him the smallest fraction of what he gave you, then I don't know what will.
Think about it...Christ did all of that for you, and you complain because tellin strangers that Jesus loves them is akward. I know...I do it to. But hopefully at the very least this will make you stop, think, pray, say thank you, just do something.

Real Christianity

Okay so this blog is sparked my a comment I heard a girl in one of my classes made. We were discussing our weekends and I said something about church and she goes "Me and my aunt don't do church. You go out and do your *crap* and then you go to church one day a week and that makes you a good a person? No thats just *screwed* up and I don't go for that." Unfortunatly her statement is partially true because we have to many fakers and hypocrites in the church....but this isn't about that. It got me thinking...how do I represent my faith? I mean I see this girl everyday. Sure I don't drink, I don't party, I don't have sex, I don't do drugs, I don't cuss, I don't do all of that stuff so I mean that puts me ahead in the game right? Right. But other than what Im not doing what am I doing? Because yeah she's right to many people live sinful lives and misrepresent Jesus Christ and that is NOT what real Christianity is about! Real Christianity is about surrendering yourself to Christ and giving up sin and living for him everyday not just on Sunday! However those of us who are sold out have become defined by what we don't do instead of what we do do for Christ and we aren't reaching as many people as we should be and we're not standing up and saying hey those people are wrong! Don't base how you feel about Christ and church on them because they are just as lost as you. We probably just come across as good people that don't do anything at all. So I wanted this to be longer but it's short and sweet. For those of you who aren't Christians know that living life however you want and then going to church is not real Christianity and for those of you who are how about we quit being defined by what we don't do and start being defined by what we do do for Christ!