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Thursday, May 19, 2011

The Terror of Senior Year

So, I am currently a junior in highschool...and will be until next friday and then I officially become a senior and I am terrified! Junior year has been the best school year of my life; I'm not an under classman and Im not in the frying pan...yet. I've had a great year with my friends and there are several things from this year that I want to remember for the rest of my life like XLT, "Kool-aid!", forensics tournaments, discussions with my best guy friend about comics, the jolly green giant, creative writing, football games, and a bunch of other things that will make no sense to you as you read this. Point is it's been a great year. But now I face my senior year, the year of growing up and making decisions. I've had a plan for a long time graduate, Honor Academy, and college. Through a lot of praying and confirmation I know this is the plan but up until now that's all it's been is a plan, a dream, a someday thing. Now I have to get a job and start saving up...it's not a someday thing anymore it's reality. It's a this is real and is going to happen. and the truth is I am terrified out of my skull. A job? No more highschool? Moving out? No more mom and dad? What is going to happen? Now most people would tell me (and have) that my senior year is ahead of my and I still have a while before I really have to worry about this stuff...but not so, not so. I start working and planning now. I fill out applications, I stock up on dress clothes for my internship, and I start making payments on my internship...I have to talk with counslers and start college visits...everything that means my childhood is behind me and now I'm an adult. I have to grow up. However, I have a sense of peace through all of this because I know that God is in control and that he's given me godly parents and they've prepared me to handle myself and make good decisions. I know that God is with me through it all. So for those of you facing change and uncertainty know that God is in control and if you have recieved him as your personal saviour and Lord and if you;re serving him he is your hope, and no matter how crazy things may seem...he's holding you in his hands.